feel dissapointed for myself

Ahh..
i feel dissapointed for myself..
i hate myself for being a dreamer..
hate myself that waste dad money..
hate for being a bullshitt..
hate for being nothing at all..

all i do is make them angry..
all i do is make them sad..
and cry..

i want try to be someone..
that in the future i can repay my parents money!!
god bless me!!and god bless u aLL!!